I’m a mom. I’m a mom to three kids. I’m a mom to 3 kids with anxiety.
My oldest daughter has also struggled with depression. Did you know that when anxiety is untreated in young children it can lead to depression? Did you know it can lead to depression even when it is treated?
I didn’t know she was anxious when she was little. I just thought she was really shy and that I was a crappy mom because I couldn’t really help her enough. Mostly importantly, what I know now, I’m not a crappy mom and she struggles with social anxiety and depression.
During the depressive times, we could never find a medication that worked. My daughter was diagnosed with “Treatment Resistant Depression.” I didn’t even know that was a thing. Treatments don’t work! What?!?! After multiple medication changes, multiple suicide attempts and psychiatric hospital stays, we began ECT treatments.
Basically, you go the hospital 3 days a week, get put to sleep, intubated, your body is paralyzed, and you are made to have a seizure. Being a nurse, what was so amazing to me was that they put a blood pressure cuff on her ankle, pump that up, and then inject the paralytic medication. Your foot doesn’t get the medication and it has the seizure movement, but your body doesn’t. Your body doesn’t have pain or discomfort from having a physical seizure but your brain has the actual seizure. They say that your brain is being re-wired. Our doctor taught us that actually the seizure causes inflammation in the brain and your body goes in to fix that and in the process allows the brain to heal.
Average person has 10-12 treatments, my daughter had 25. It was so hard to watch her go through that many treatments. She hated being put to sleep but was happy that she felt improvement afterwards.
During this time, I spent much of my time while riding in the car as we drove to far away pysch hospitals or sitting in waiting rooms, searching for quotes that strengthened me so that I could stay strong for her! I’ve added a few of them to this post, but will continue to share them!
If you are struggling with your own mental health or helping a loved one battle mental health challenges, there is hope! Never give up!