Guess what?!?!?
I haven’t blogged because I am not
I know…none of us are perfect.
So why is it so hard for me
to say
yesterday I did great
and
today
I am doing
cRaPPy!
I guess cause I want to
appear like I
can do all
things!
Like I am super mom!
But this
is a lot closer
to the truth!
giggle, giggle snort!!
After talking to a friend
and my super great sis,
i was reminded
AGAIN
that we are all doing our best.
But sometimes
that is hard to remember
when i am
pinning
the amazing things that all
the other mom’s/women are doing.
Cause really
everyone
except me
keeps a perfectly clean house!
makes cool palm trees out of pineapple
to complete a perfect themed party!
(don’t get me wrong…i think this is SUPER cool)
chooses not to eat the cookie
so that they have abs that look like this
Make their own
super cute glitter shoes
and every drawer in their
house is perfectly
folded and organized!
Okay…
so logically,
I know this is not true!
But why does it feel true!
Why do I feel like if
I don’t exercise for 1 hour
and sweat profusely
then it wasn’t worth doing.
Or if I don’t
cook a perfect meal
absolutely nutritiously balanced
then we might as well eat cold cereal.
Or if I don’t
read 30 minutes
of scriptures every single day,
then I shouldn’t do it all.
And then I remember
I am very grateful for people who are
smarter than I
and
who remind me to
simplify my life.
I have been struggling
with feeling I blew another
diet/lifestyle change…
again!!
But trying to focus on
the fact that
~it is better if
I try again
when I flop
then if I
never try again!~
has allowed me to be proud
of the things I have done.
I wasn’t going to post any after photos
at first
because I felt like my change
wasn’t that great.
plus, seriously, I am showing alot of skin here…
sports bra and bikini bottom…
i normally would never let anyone see such pics.
But I am owning this weight loss!
I am proud of what I have done.
Lost 12 lbs.
And when I really think about it
my highest weight in life was 280 lbs.
I am 86 lbs less than that!!
That is a big accomplishment
and I am going
to allow myself
to see that I am
moving in the right
direction!
And I promise I was not pushing my stomach out or sucking it in!
wow…i can’t believe I posted this! 🙂
Comments
Sometimes it is good to be hard with yourself when you are aware with your nature. I have been doing the same with myself to get on the place where I want to be in my life.